I’m a little bit of an emotional mess today! Today marks my son’s 18 Birthday and I remember like it was yesterday the Doctor announcing “It’s a BOY!” I cradled my 6 lb. baby in my arms and gently ran my hand over his soft dark hair. Now he’s nearly 6 ft. tall, shaves his face and would crush me if I tried to pick him up!
My memory recalls the very day I held a positive pregnancy test in my hands. I remember weeping as I felt like my life was ruined. I was only 15 then, a baby myself really, but God used that valley to bring me to Himself! We ended up at a Christian maternity home for unwed mothers and in my brokenness I finally cried out to God for help! I remembered that my Pastor always consecrated babies to the Lord during dedications…so even though I had NO idea what consecration meant, I thought I should pray “that” over the baby in my womb. Later, I learned that I was continually “setting apart” my child to the Lord.
God did something so amazingly powerful in that delivery room…He delivered me! He filled me with a capacity of love that I have never experienced and as I looked down into the face of my baby boy, I wanted to be more! A desire to be all God intended me to be rose up from the very depths of my soul. I had a knowing that God would take care of us and we were going to be just fine. As my parenting journey began the days were long, the nights even longer…sometimes my baby and I BOTH cried through the night! This job was intense, exhausting and a thousand times harder than I ever thought it would be! But yet I prayed…I prayed that God would give me strength for just one more day.
Those days turned to weeks, those weeks to months, those months now to years and can I just tell you that my God is faithful! Can I just testify to His goodness in our lives! He was always with us, His hand always over us. He provided for us every step of the way and continues to do so to this very day!
Today I weep not of sadness but of JOY! The very one "the world" said would ruin my life, God has used to save it!
Happy 18th Birthday Kalif! You are everything I could have wanted in a son and more! I am proud of you and honored to be your Mother. I know you will do great and mighty things for the Kingdom of Heaven through Christ Jesus who gives you strength! I love you, mom.
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